It has been awhile....

I have taken a bit of a break from blogging as of late.  With all that I have had going on at work,and in life, some things just needed to give.But, things are getting better.

Now, I am still getting little to no sleep (envious of thoseof you whom have toddlers that sleep through the night), and I am doing allthat I can to prepare for the new little one that is one the way.  But I feel that I have been slacking. 

So, I am going to make a concerted effort toget back on top of things. To pour myself into my family. To ensure that mybeloved bride, @minorinspirations, gets breaks from the kiddos, and can focus on her (and the baby’s)well-being.  This also means that I willbe back to posting more.  There is somuch that I have been wanting to say, that I just have not had the energy to doso.

It sucks, that feeling of being drained of everything.  Watching the world go by at break-neck speedand having little more energy than is needed to move, to simple exist. But, as Isaid, things are getting better.

I had a moment today, a solid five minutes, where I couldjust sit back and think about all that I have to be thankful for.  To think about all that is coming in the nearfuture, and how lucky I am to be where I am.The biggest thing that is coming right around the corner is the Dad 2.0Summit.  There is the quixotic apprehensionthat comes with doing something that you have wanted to do for so long.  No matter how it all turns out, I am ever so gratefulthat I am going to be attending this year.I am excited to finally meet so many of the dad’s that I have beenfollowing for so long.  I am salivating atthat chance to glean some ideas about how to progress what it is that I amtrying to do here, and with Cranio Dad’s Foundation.

It is funny that the same apprehension is providingsubstantially more peace in the chaos than it should. Realizing that 13 daysfrom now I will be in Washington DC, and the weekend of awesomeness will be beginning.That I will be doing my best not to eat the cupcake(s) that I am bringing for @electradaddy… because there is not a thing better to give such an amazingperson.

It is also crazy to think about how calm my beloved and I aretaking the news about baby number three coming to join us soon.  I am constantly reminded about all the vividworries and fears that I had when our daughter was on the way.  I remember being able to FEEL the difference,the lighter weight, that surrounded us when our son was on the way.  Now, I chuckle to myself and see that thereis only one plaguing question that has persisted since we found out ourdaughter was on her way so many years ago.“How is my heart going to have enough love to give another child, when Ilove both the ones we have now so wholly and completely”?

I hope that I can keep some level of momentum going, andthat my message still rings loudly to you all that…

I AM A CRANIO DAD, I am scared out of my mind, and throughit all this ride is going to be awesome.